You Know Those Nights You Can’t Fall Asleep? Well Maybe It’s Because You’re Awake In Someone Elses Dream.
so there was this wall I had up, and you crumbled it down. the pieces are still lying there, covered in moisture from the tears formed by your false words. I tried to be strong and wait for you to find what you were looking for, but you lack of communication was all I need to see to show me it was always only about the person in the mirror.
For a few days I kept looking at today’s date and it felt familiar. I didn’t tell anyone about this sensation. May 7th kept popping up, racking my brain as if I was forgetting someone’s birthday, anniversary… maybe it was even the date of a big car show done in past years as that has happened before…
Finally it’s May 7th and I never gave my inquisition a second thought…until I was looking at a prescription bottle I just picked up from the drug store with today’s date it finally, for no reason the significance of today popped in my mind. It is an ex-boyfriend’s birthday and even then I wasn’t sure, my mother confirmed it for me.
One, I find it hilarious I’m looking at a pill bottle and that’s what makes me think of him and it’s his birthday. So many references could be made there. Two, the best feeling is I didn’t remember it was his birthday unlike years past even though we were apart. However has become a distant memory of mine even though he was the longest relationship I was in and even shared a home with. It is now almost 6 years since our parting of ways, and I got the closure I needed luckily some time back.
As with other people who are a part of my past, if I was to see him now I would tell him the same thing I would tell ex-bestfriends, and ex-friends…. “We had our time when we were meant to. However there is no place for you in this bliss of mine. You weren’t there for me at my worst, I sure as heck don’t want you around as I make my way back up to the top.”
Happy Birthday KEW where ever you are. Thanks for the good memories. I wish you the best.
I can’t get this fucking song out of my head……. how can I make you see it matters to me?
I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up
Every girl has her best friend, boyfriend, and true love. But you’re really lucky if they’re all the same person.