You Know Those Nights You Can’t Fall Asleep? Well Maybe It’s Because You’re Awake In Someone Elses Dream.
so there was this wall I had up, and you crumbled it down. the pieces are still lying there, covered in moisture from the tears formed by your false words. I tried to be strong and wait for you to find what you were looking for, but you lack of communication was all I need to see to show me it was always only about the person in the mirror.
Distant Memories
For a few days I kept looking at today’s date and it felt familiar. I didn’t tell anyone about this sensation. May 7th kept popping up, racking my brain as if I was forgetting someone’s birthday, anniversary… maybe it was even the date of a big car show done in past years as that has happened before…
Finally it’s May 7th and I never gave my inquisition a second thought…until I was looking at a prescription bottle I just picked up from the drug store with today’s date it finally, for no reason the significance of today popped in my mind. It is an ex-boyfriend’s birthday and even then I wasn’t sure, my mother confirmed it for me.
One, I find it hilarious I’m looking at a pill bottle and that’s what makes me think of him and it’s his birthday. So many references could be made there. Two, the best feeling is I didn’t remember it was his birthday unlike years past even though we were apart. However has become a distant memory of mine even though he was the longest relationship I was in and even shared a home with. It is now almost 6 years since our parting of ways, and I got the closure I needed luckily some time back.
As with other people who are a part of my past, if I was to see him now I would tell him the same thing I would tell ex-bestfriends, and ex-friends…. “We had our time when we were meant to. However there is no place for you in this bliss of mine. You weren’t there for me at my worst, I sure as heck don’t want you around as I make my way back up to the top.”
Happy Birthday KEW where ever you are. Thanks for the good memories. I wish you the best.
I can’t get this fucking song out of my head……. how can I make you see it matters to me?
I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up
-Jason Mraz
True Love
Just a fairy tale? Or does it really exist? My grandparents were married over 50 years. At 30, I won’t be fortunate to know what that feels like.
Every girl has her best friend, boyfriend, and true love. But you’re really lucky if they’re all the same person.